New Beginnings

We'll soon be living an expat life. As Black Americans it's rough living in our own country with institutional racism,  escalating police brutality, and skewed politics. Yes, i'm a "proud American" but i also get disappointed with the state of our union.

GERMANY is our 1st stop where we'll live for about two years and continue to raise two kids. I'm excited to learn more about the German culture. European culture. Excited to teach my children how to embrace new people, respect the local customs, slightly overcome language barriers and experience local cuisine.

My husband and I recently celebrated our 7 year anniversary. We've already been through so much as a couple and our pending move to a foreign land has already brought us closer; although,  it hasn't been without complications.  I'm truly looking forward to testing our resilience as a family.  Finding new ways to love each other.  Tapping into hobbies in a new place to make new friends. 

ReDesigning / ReImagining

I remember when I was in my early 20s, most achievements came so effortlessly. I've always had a great road map in my mind of how my life would go and by God's grace and my hardwork my dreams flourished. Marriage and Motherhood were in my mental road map and when I accepted my husband's hand in marriage I had NO idea how this commitment would impact my outlook on life, myself, my role in the world. Marriage -- sharing my life with someone I truly love -- has been thee most humbling experience to date.

This is not a gloom and doom marriage story...anymore...lol. We had a very dark time but I see light now and I'm glad we were able to stick it through. We are blessed to have elders in our lives that offered their love, support and opinions yet still gave us room to "figure it out". July 2014 will be our seven (7) year anniversary and we've both grown, matured and diminished so much of our egos that we're able to be understanding, listen  for more meaning and respond in love. This growth process hasn't always felt good; but getting to the other side is true Victory.  Life always brings more challenges but I take comfort in believing that we'll overcome them together, more gracefully than before.

The video I posted below is of Denzel Washington speaking to a group of actors; but he's sums up a message I hear from my grandmother, an extremely wise woman, a lot. Your well meaning, good ideas and desires are God ideas. My thoughts about my life's path and how to achieve peace, joy and prosperity are desires of God for me, specifically. God sent these ideas; these desires to me. Now, its my obligation to put in the work to make these dreams come true!  This is marriage. This is motherhood. This is entrepreneurship.

I've still got more goals to achieve but I'm proud of me because I know that I'm diligent about continuously improving my spiritual, mental, physical, and emotionally self to be a better me. I won't allow the dreams that my loved ones have FOR me impede on my own vision for myself. I'll be joyful re-designing my future; re-imagining my days. This will be exciting and I'm Bonnie along for the ride.

Post by MD Marketing Network.

Grey. Area.

For me, grey areas in life cause confusion and leave too much room for error.  I like the definitive - no ifs and maybes - only when and will! I've been living in Grey for far too long.  It's time to make decisions to allow laser focus.  The future is on line and time waits for no one.  I will make the best of my time. I have learned a lot and I am very thankful for these lessons. No one could have prepared me and now I must move forward with love and dignity fully accountable for any aftermath. 

I am ready!

Admission of the Real

It's my new year! My new year began on June 29th around 5:30 pm and on that day, I took my 31st full rotation around the sun. Something profound has been stirring in my heart's center. It's one of those not so easy decisions; one of those life altering decisions that will no doubt cause some spark, but that's kind of the point!

Sometimes you have to step out on faith and follow your heart. My gut can't be telling me wrong. Especially since I've prayed, meditated, levitated, prayed some more, talked to friends and spiritual advisers and at the end of it all I come back to the same point...I need to follow my gut, my heart, my center -- it's leading me so I must follow. The sparks from these kinds of decisions will cause a fire to burn so hot that it creates an environment for change so beautiful yet so drastic -- I couldn't have dreamed it more perfectly.

All that I need -- I have.  All that I dream of will be multiplied. I will continue to live unapologetic for making myself happy yet with great gratitude for those in my life (past and present) that help me along the way. I am my daughter's first role model.

With grace, gratitude and fortitude -- Happy New Year to Me!